A letter to myself..

To Dear Nicole:

Never give up…
M said that: confident wasn’t bringing from others, is build by your own.
That’s right…
Be responsibility with your life...
You just need some time to manage your emotion.
1 minutes…
After 1 minutes, you will be fine...
You need to help yourself,
Positive thinking was crucial in needed for manage your feeling
Your happiness world will come over to you soon…

Regards,
Nicole

无奈

我好无奈~
明明看见了，却必须当作看不见~
明明很害怕，却要假装不太在意~
为什么还要来这里？ 她都已经赢了~
为什么还要挖我的回忆，让我又一次的想起我痛苦的回忆?
她~某人的老婆
我已经尽力的避免自己去一些会被遇见的地方，
我已经放弃了，离开了，放手了~
永远不可能会对她造成任何的威胁~
为什么还是要来我的星巴克？
看见我哭会比较开心吗？
看到我尴尬不自然的表情会比较开心吗？
是的~ 我承认我是脆弱的~
是的~ 我承认我是哭了~
是因为放不下我的自尊心~
但是我不想逃避~ 我应该面对~
只是,
失败的我~ 真的连抬起头的勇气都没有了~
我好无奈~

我的小小愿望~

我的大日子~毕业典礼
我希望我想见的人会忽然间的出现，给我一个意外惊喜~
通常，毕业典礼总是少不了花啦，bear bear 啦。。。
平凡的我，也蛮期待收到美美的花啦~
原因是：本小姐从来没有收过一束束的花啦~ （失败~）
希望他会记得我的毕业典礼~
就算不来，一封短短的信息祝福我，我也会很开心的~

但是，我的小小愿望~ 他会知道吗？
他不会知道~ 永远不会知道~
所以。。。

我的毕业典礼，
他不会给我惊喜~
他不会过来找我~
他不会送花给我~
他不会写信息来~
他不会给祝福我~

结论，
你与我~ 从来没变成我们
就像电脑Keyboard里的 N 与 M ~
看似好亲密~ 一个在左，一个在右~
可是，清醒点吧~
它们从来没有交集点~
是不同的个体，从来没有任何关系~

Wishing...

July 15, 2009

Posting a display about "wishing" at facebook..

Frens was keep on asking me what about the "wishing"...

Not really wish to be chat about it openly, coz that will influence my emotion.

Not really hope to express it oso, jz let it settleable in my heart..

however, i needed to clear up my mind and select what actually i needs and wants...

but, currently.. my status only can be describe as this:

这个世界就这么不完美。

你想得到些什么就不得不失去些什么。

但是，我比较特别~ 想得到什么就失去些什么。

可悲咯~

This was my current thought..

Dunno when it started,

Dunno where be recover,

Dunno what is the main problems,

Dunno which channel to change it,

Dunno why this always happened,

Dunno how to manage it..

~迷惑~

what am i doing now??
keep on ran away for the reality..

Plz....
Nicole Tan

Plz....
Come back plz....

You will be getting fine soon,
dun keep on hide urself..

You need to work hard with it,
dun always felt nervous..

is it my life just around Genting??
y i must keep myself at Genting??

y.. y.. y..

May be i still hv a lot of sweet memories over here..
May be i'm addicted myself with Genting aldy..

i dun hv any power to cure myself...
i not dare to face the reality...

that day, Juan said:
"impossible that i will stay at Genting for the rest of my life"
Suddenly, i was woke up myself..

Everytime, i will said "I need time to solve my problems... "
but, i jz wasting my time in hocus myself...
i jz elude myself in facing my failure...

After my interview..

My inteview on 7 July 2009..
I'm the 1st person reach the Maxims Boardroom..
There are 5 candidates short-listed for the media relations post..
But, they will only select one of us..

STRESS.....

I had try my best to translated the press release from english to chinese.
I had been studied about 3 years with using english as my main language,
NOW.. suddenly ask me write chinese words without computer...
That's quite a huge challenge for me la...

By the way, i had tried my best in translated it with my skill...
haha, sound weird for me...
If they ask me translate chinese to english, may be i still can do better...

Anyway, Mr. H always visit me when i was wrote my blog at starbucks woh...
Haha, so happy...

Ok la... just end my blog here la...

~Interview~

Tomorrow I will going to inteview for the post named as Media Relations Executive. When i was received a call from Genting, I was very happy and appreciate it. Here, i would like to indicate my greatest appreciate to my friend - cassie, because she was the one who helps me sending my resume to the department. Finally, i get a chance to interview executive under Genting.

As my friends, you always knowing that my best wishes would be working at Genting. NOT because of others reason la, just because that the environment, weather and friends at Genting....

~Media Relations~
My weakest subject during my Uni life...
However, I need to work with it?? sound so weird...
BUT... i will try my best to handle it...
Just trust me... Just trust myself..
My dreams... i will always chasing it...

Hope that god will blessing me as well... Hence, I put a lot stress on myself to gain this apportunity and I really hope that I can perform great during the Interview and successfully work under Genting.

By the way, I really appreciate that a cute cute guy was always willing to gave me a hand, pulling me from the darkest situation and refresh my mind, so that I can handle my problems positively.

Thanks a lot, Mr. H~
Har Har, don't try to titter ya...
I'm SURE that you will...

p/s: When i wrote this, a cute cute guy was sitting in front of me.. haha...
Thanks for surprise me at Genting ya..